Recently I was left for another a younger shinier model of car. I wasn’t a sports car!
I’m more of a luxury sedan built for comfort not for speed. I admit the new car smell had worn off. The paint may have dulled a bit. But nothing a good buffing, with a polish wax, couldn’t have fixed. It would have brought back that old paint to a high shine again.
But in a disposable society it’s easier to get a new car then invest the time and work in an old one. That sports car was cute &fast but it was also cramped, cheaply built and not comfortable for long drives.
So after 26 years of marriage, I was a single woman. I had to put my big girl panties on and go search for the single girl that lay somewhere deep within me.
I didn’t want to start over. The marriage was not ideal by any means, but after a while you can get used to anything. The dysfunctional marriage was comfort, after so many years it seemed normal to me.
I’m sure many of you Hater’s think or feel that “the whore” got what I deserved!
So why share this post? Why open myself up to the finger pointing and laughter from those that live in glass houses?
I DO IT FOR THE FEW! To shed light and to show that no matter walk of life or path you choose. We are all in the same boat when it comes to love and marriage. We are all human and can falter when we are in a life altering position.
It’s what we choose to do once we have been knocked down that separates us.
I chose not to let the words would have, could have or should have play in my mind and hold me back. I have chosen to get up and fight for my path in life.
Fear based questions like who will ever love a sexual freak like me. Or the daunting I will be alone forever! I will not let them rent space in my head.
I only know I have ME, MYSELF and I, they have always been with me and always will.
RIP Perverted Pete. You will still live on in these pages in my posts. I thank you for the good years and for my children. I wish you all of the best on your new journey.
*This car isn’t new anymore but it looks good, and has no dents in it!